I end up on my blog when...

....there are a lot of things that I keep in my head and heart.

Gosh, I'm feeling so uneasy recently. I've done something that I should not be doing.

But the curiosity really kills me. I can't resist myself from not doing it.

Now it affects my feeling and trust towards someone.

I knew that it'll be unfair if I treat him bad without telling him what is going on. I'm so selfish. :(

Now I got a heartache. No matter what I'm doing, even make myself think positively, that feeling still kills me.

I'm so stupid. I just hope that I won't ruin my relationship because of my stupidity.