Not yet start, But want It to finish

5 more days to go! aww its like.. T_T
But my best friend already fly to Perlis. (Tc Edzlyn)
And its my turn to fly this Friday. Wonder how's goin` on there.
I just hoping that everything gonna be fine.

Umm 4 years? Sure that I can finish that. Yah I'm really sure..
But just now I really hope that I already graduate..
Lol,jk.. If only I can fast forward..
If only I already become a "working women".
No more study, No more stress, No more going anywhere..
But that's what life's mean right..
Gain experience, traveling.. Wait! My dream is going to CANADA!
Never forget that!! Uugghh..
And maybe I'm gonna missing to study after I'm working..

Gosh, I really can't wait going to that "DAY"

Those were the days

Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and a half Friday is the last days for me to stay here in my hometown.
Gonna fly to Kuantan Pahang soon!
What will happen to my life next Friday? I know it is a beginning for my journey of being a STUDENT.
But ugh.. I still can't leave my place! Maybe because of... very long holiday? Yah of coz..
Uhuuu.. its true I'm leaving. But that doesn't mean that I'm not coming back right?
I am coming back on holiday..

I'm feeling bad today. Its not because I'm leaving but because I know the truth about something.
Just forget it. I'm a bad girl if I talk about it here.
But I hope that it will not effect me.
Huh! I am me!

Yesterday I went to Kota Kinabalu to settle that BIMB account. What a day..
I'm using a lot of money. Its my mum's money actually. I felt guilty but what to do.. I need all the things. And I'm so depressed because I've got many thing to do before 2ND of July!! Help! Help!

Hmm.. What else? Uumm suddenly I think about my life's pathway.
Its a long long long journey. After get my degree, I think I'll continue with Medic.
Gosh! I know its seems so hard PLUS take a long time. Yah I already mention it right. hehe..
Can I accomplish that? Yep! With bless of God..
After get Medic of course I will be a "working women".
Married? Hate to think about that.. I just leave it to God.
But, can`t I just married with myself or God? haha.. INSANE!
Nah! Just joking. I'll just accept that "someday,somehow"..

:Tiger Lily:

We drive tonight
And you are by my side
We're talking about our lives
Like we've known each other forever
The time flies by
With the sound of your voice
Its close to paradise
With the end surely near
And if i could only stop the car
And hold onto you
And never let go
I'll never let go
As we round the corner
To your house
You turned to me and said
"I'll be going through withdrawal of you
For this one night we have spent."
And, I want to speak these words
But i guess I'll just bite my tongue,
And accept "someday, somehow"
As the words that we'll hang from.

And I.. I don't want to speak these words
'cause I.. I don't want to make things any worse.
And I.. I don't want to speak these words.
'cause I.. I don't want to make things any worse.

Why does tonight, have to end?
Why don't we hit restart
And pause it at our favorite parts
We'll skip the goodbyes
If i had it my way,
I'd turn the car around and runaway,
Just you and I

And I.. I don't want to speak these words
'cause I.. I don't want to make things any worse
And I.. I don't want to speak these words
'cause I.. I don't want to make things
And I.. I don't want to make things any worse

9 Days to go?

Hate to admit this but... yah, I ugh.. never mind.
Got that flight ticket receipt today.. And I don't know why.. ugh never mind..

I keep thinking that.. leaving on 2hb just for beginning.
This feeling will be destroy after that.. yeah right.. I'm gonna be just fine.

Yeah fine.. What?! Sad?! No I'm not!!
Alright.. Maybe a little bit..
Alright maybe a big bit..

Whatever.. Bye bye Sabah.
Gonna Miss You

Cuz God still trust me

Yeay! No more worries. Everything seems like just be okay. I got something that I really want! I know that God always give me the best. Life is full of surprise. I'm very thankful right now.
I got an offer from University of Malaysia Pahang. And guess what? I got Applied Science (Hons) Industrial Biotechnology!! Its Biotech! I really dream it for my Degree!!
I'm so damn happy! Its a dream come true. God heard my pray. He gave me something else better instead my sadness because of my matriculation result. Yeah God still trust me to do this. And I know I can finish this! Only four years..

Anyway, I think my previous post is busted! I'm leaving on 2ND of July. And now, in my mind I don't want to go anywhere. BUT! I keep thinking that success is "right there". It's not here in my home. So,leaving my home sweet home is only part of the process. We can't just stay in one place right? However, I admit that it is hard to leave all the peoples here. If only I can bring them along. But how come? Nonsense. Uurghh.. must focus! I'll never forget my aim. It is my war,must finish this until the end.

Honestly, the most people that I will missing very much and its hard for me to leave are;

My wonderful mum

My talkative and show-off lil' brother

Other? Hell yeah.. I also gonna miss my favorite TV show, my holiday, my home sweet home... as conclusion, I miss my entire life here in my place!!

xXx,
Dad, I almost
made it!
Mum, I'll get
that DEGREE
just for u!
Then I'll get
an awesome JOB
and give you
life like a QUEEN!
don't worry <3>

I want to get the hell out of here ASAP!

Oh God. I'm so fuckin` boring!
Next week is the biggest event! Where will I belong? I dunno. God know.
Yeah I really wanna get out of here asap. But i know that no place is sweet as home.
However, that's what I called life. Want to know more about life? We should brave to get out from our own place. I mean, far away from home.
My dream was in CANADA! Hell yeah I want to further my study at Canada.
I just hoping that God will always bless me.
July is the day where I'll continue my journey a.k.a war!