It was like we were getting slice on pieces inside of our self.
Here I would like to confess some "secret".
Actually, I'm not that problem-sharing-person. I only share it if I really can't bear it by myself.
But as long as I feel strong to keep and solve it, I will keep it.
Some people think that I kept too much secrets. But I'm not.
I just don't really like to share some part of my life. Or maybe.. all part of my life. (I guess)
It is full of an awful story which some people cannot understand it so well.
So I prefer to keep it by myself. It's much better.
My first 8 years life seems to be so wonderful. The next 11 years.. Its kinda so complicated for me.
Sometimes I complicate it by my self. xD
Hey, know what? Sometimes I'm so good in faking smile. But when the person that really understands me so well comes and reveals everything through what can be see in my eyes, it will be the hard situation for me.
If only God give me the ability to see future and change the past, sure that I'll be back to 1999 and ask "him" to stay at home and not going anywhere. T_T
If I can do that, my life nowadays must be so much better. No pain when recall the past.
Sometimes when I really can't bear this feeling,
I asked God to return "you" back to us.
But it's so damn impossible.
I just keep moving on and I know that I shouldn't ever look back.
Forgive me Christ.
2 comments:
I know what you mean and who's the 'him' that you refer to.All I can say,
Stay strong and stay still!
prove to 'him' that you are independent and can keep on living without him!so that he'll be proud watching you from up there!
thanx..n i will make him proud!thats a promise!
same goes to u aa..^^
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