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Sometimes, I'm wondering..
How come certain people can share their problem with other people?
Why they can easily speak-it-out whenever they have a problem?
I mean, that's a healthy way. But how?
For me, I really couldn't say a word.
Even if I try, but still..something deep inside my heart will say to me that "Just keep it. You'll be all right soon".
I always listen the problems from others, but I never let them listen to mine.
The things that they always listen from me were my angryness.
It just not fair sometimes.
I don't know.. maybe 'sharing' is the hardest thing that I'll ever can do in my life.

Save one year time of study?

Open Registration System,
the new system to register for the upcoming semester.
Means, I can register whatever subjects that I wanna take on my second year!
I read the explanation about OR and I was like, what the hell?
It's first come first serve! I just scared if I didn't manage to register the subjects that I want to take.
But the thing that I like about this OR is, EARLY graduation!
Yes, EARLY. And now I'm thinking of graduate on 2013?
Hmm, I wanna create my shortcut. But ugh.. I dunno if it is easy.
Need a lot of focus and strategies.
Owh man, I hate the new system! It makes me think of graduate early, graduate early, and... gradute early. *Damn it*
I already calculated my remaining credit hours (minus Industrial Training) and I need to take 80 credit hours.
Haish, need to discuss with my mum first. If she give me a GREEN LIGHT, then I guess I can plan for my mission.
One more thing that I like about OR is student will get the opportunity to involve in student exchange program! wehee~ :D
But still, for now I doubt with my ability to graduate within two years instead of three years.
Is it possible for me to make it happen? T_T

Don't make me as your driver!

Last week, I almost crash my mum's car!
My God, it was few inches close to the tree!
And I was like nothing. I mean, I didn't trauma or what.
But I know now what's the different between the driver and the passenger.
Guess, being a passenger is two times scarier than being a driver.
That time, it was my second time driving from the town to my home.
I don't know why but I felt so-very-positive confident driving at 90km/h until I arrived to my home. (For a beginner, I shouldn't do that!)
I was with my mum that time. Then, almost reached my home but still 90km/h--!
I should speed down the car but I didn't!
And then my mum said "break!break!". But in my mind, I was like "I know what I'm doing".
Then I don't know what was exactly happened, but I managed stopped the car. (But, it was this close to the tree!)
*Damn it* The only thing that came up on my mind was, "okay, I screwed it. No more driving after this".
Actually, that was my gaining-trust-process. But I screwed it up! Very 'good' job. =.="
However, I went to the town today (again) with my mum.
Then the magic happened! She still trust me as a driver! wehee~
I drive, but I can't speed up over 50km/h. Gosh, it was super slow! argh!
What to do. Must follow what's the boss said.
Gain trust first, then I can do whatever I want!
*I'm not a good driver anyway* haha :D

" For God alone my soul waits in silence, for my hope is from him. He only is my rock and my salvation,my fortress; I shall not be shaken. On God rests my deliverance and my honor; my mighty rock, my refuge is God.
Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us."

(Psalm 62:5-8)

Don't Let Me Go

I can see your shadow laying in the moonlight
I can feel your heartbeat playing on my right side
Every night I long for this, makin' up what I miss
I can hear you breathing letting out a sad sigh

You try so hard to hide your scars
Always on your guard

Don't, don't let me go
Don't make me hold on when you're not
Don't, don't turn away
What can I say so you won't
No don't, don't let me go...

I can see the skyline fading in the distance
Tears are comin' down
I'm trying just to make sense
I don't listen to the radio just the engine and the road
I wonder if my words are makin' any difference

I dream and then it seems to end
But always comes again

I'm comin' down
To where you're standing
I need you now or you'll be watchin'
Me hit the ground
With crash landing...

*Just.. Don't Let Me Go again. Will you?...

Fly with Fire

Today, exactly 1 month left for me to stay at my beloved hometown.

Feels like.. *malas* (because it will take almost half day to arrive!) T_T
But *rajin* also cuz my brain semakin berkarat. (syhhh)
However,the most important thing is I managed to...NO!my mum managed to bought the flight tickets which is not extremely expensive! (If its too expensive,seriously I'm gonna extend my holiday!)
But.. this time is different. Because I'm gonna use the "new" aircraft! :D

Honestly, I feel like kinda worried `cuz I'll fly using Kelip-Kelip. haha
The first thing that came out on my mind when my mum told me that I'm gonna use Firefly is.. HOW MUCH PER KG SHOULD I PAY FOR THE EXCESS BAGGAGE??
(I know that my luggage will overweight.If NOT, it must be a MAGIC!)
Then the second thing is.. is there any delicious food that will be serve during the flight? LOL.
Its not a big deal anyway.

I read the Firefly's acknowledgement.
They said;
Travel in comfort - Friendly cabin crew, YUMMY SNACKS and attractive merchandise.
Arrive at your destination COMFORTABLY and SAFELY.

Yes. The word SAFELY is the most important! :D

Well, just wait 1 month later to know how does it feel.
But for sure, I'm gonna sing the song by Owl City-Fireflies when its time to fly with FIREFLYY! haha.. (I'll sing silently while listen to that song)

You would not believe your eyes,
If ten million FIREFLIES,
Lit up the world as I fell asleep..
Cause they'd fill the open air,
and leave teardrops everywhere,
You think me rude,
But I would just stand and stare........
I'd like to make myself believe,
That planet Earth turns slowly,
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep,

cause everything is never as it seems...........

"ORANGE is the new GREEN"

When I was a kid I used to
pray every night for
a new doll.
Then I realized that
the Lord
doesn't work that way so
I stole one and
asked
Him to forgive me :)

unBORED day

Bored-ness came to me today. Usually, I won't feel boring on Sunday.

But I don't know why it's kinda..like..macam.. BORING. =.="
So after I came back from Church, I grabbed my digital camera and "mundar-mandir" outside my house. (hoping I can snap something weird)
Well, no weird creature. T_T
So I just snapped whatever my heart asked me to snap.
Then I saw these kind of..ermm not flower. It looks like..just a plant maybe.

See, it just a plant right? But plant also have a name what. How about "Pine-apple"? Hell no! But it looks like a pine and pineapple.lol (I'm not a botanist)

This is a flower. (So skema =.=") Well, actually I wanna focus Mr. ANT that crawling on the flower. But when I snap! It already gone.

I was focusing on a type of flower when I heard the noise of something. I turned back then *tadaa* I saw the mayau(s) a.k.a cats was playing at their 'playground'.
Then suddenly this idea was *pop* on my mind. Why not I 'hire' the cats to be my Model of The Day? And yes! I made it! :D

Okay, this is the first one. This cat is a male. He is the strongest cat ever! He is half-blind, due to the accident past few months ago (damn that motorcyclist!). His left eyes was very very critical on that time. Then we went to a veterinarian. Now he's so damn fine! :D

Guess what? This is his sister! Also the strongest cat ever. Well, she gave birth of 5 kittens before but all already Rest In Peace! Very sad moment that time. They died one by one. BUT then she gave birth again! 3 kittens (one black, two twins). And...rest in peace again. Only one survive. But sadly, not the black one. T_T

Damn cute this momma cat. She liked it when I took her pictures. She was like "yea, I pose and you snap. Then later on, gimme my favorite food!

This is the "survivor kitten"!! The only kitten that survive. She's an extremely-hyperactive kitten. So hard to handle her when her play-mode is ON! When I snap this picture, I felt like she was saying "I'm a ninja! My body can change color. see" haha..

"I also can hide like a ninja!Owh shoot! The camera found me again! Gotta find somewhere else to hide!"

I was so excited taking the mayau(s)'s pictures, but suddenly there was a light! I was like..what the..I didn't on the flash mode! But it wasn't from my camera. It was a lightning! Then bam!bam!bam! (kinda like that laa) And opss, okay..heavy rain gonna hit me soon. Then I just go back into my house. Then suddenly (again) there was an idea that *pop* on my mind! Why not I snap something that have a meaning? hmm...

Nah, the theme of this picture is "Life's brief candle" (suka hati ja curi title poem org.haha). But, don't you think so?

This is The Keys Of Success in Life. Whoever want to success in life can borrow these keys from me. xD

This is a... Cotton Bud. And only.... Cotton Bud. haha.

And that's the story all about. Heavy rain.. heavy rain.. Gimme a very nice sleep. zzz

Past, Present, Future

People said that,
"the past will remains the past, never look back unless you are forced to do so."

And they also said that,
"just looking forward for the future, but never try to figure it out."

But the words that every people always said,
"everyday is a gift, that's why we called it present."

However, people always ignore the third one.
They are either stuck in their past, or too busy to figure out their future.
Is it normal?
Yah, I think its normal.
But one wont get a normal life.

For me, life is about moving on. Not too fast, and not too slow.
It also have no pause and stop button until God say its time for you to "quit".
Stuck in the past wont give you anything. Know that the time wont reverse itself for you.
And busy of figure out our own future is useless. Know that God holds your future.

But why some people let themself stuck in their past, and keep thinking of their future?
Hey, there's a lot of thing that you can do. Life is beautiful. Just keep going on what you've got now.
Yes, you'll experience the sadness, happiness, joy, and so on.
But what is life without all of that right?
You've got nothing to lose `cuz what you take is what you've got.

*true to say, future scare me*

Talking To The Moon

Bruno Mars' Talking to the moon.

*the song is just..beautiful :')

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back

My neighbors think I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I had
You're all I had

At night when the stars light up my room
I sit by myself

Talking to the moon
Tryin' to get to you
In hopes you're on the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool?
Who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I'm feeling like I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say I've gone mad
Yeah I've gone mad

But they don't know what I know
'cause when the sun goes down
Someone's talking back
Yeah, they're talking back

At night when the stars light up my room
I sit by myself

Talking to the moon
Tryin' to get to you
In hopes you're on the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool?
Who sits alone
Talking to the moon

Do you ever hear me calling?
'cause every night, I'm talking to the moon
Still tryin' to get to you

In hopes you're on the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool?
Who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away

I tried talking to the moon. It never answer me.
I talking to the God. He also never answer me. But He show me the way to find the answer.